Full-Blown Suffering: My Struggle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden pain bloomed behind my one eye. It was followed by quick jolts, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater force. Four times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition typically start with severe pain around a single eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, like several triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the head. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In 1998, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

National guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But leading specialists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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